Sunday, March 1, 2009

number two. snow.

so like anyone else in the Washington, D.C. metropolitan area with a job, an internship, school, or any other general reason to not want to get up on a Monday morning, I am hoping for snow. all of the snow that they're calling for, i want it. i would love to roll over, turn from food network to fox 5 news (as i do every morning) and read across the top, bottom, side, or diagonal of the screen that PG County Public Schools is closed and that UMD is closed too...man, that would cap off a g-reat weekend. i just want another day to roll around in the bed and do nothing...or maybe i'll actually read for a class or something...

i've been doing a lot of thinking lately...with all this newfound time i have to myself because of my lack of a social life caused by having to get up at 6:15 every morning to go help 1st and 2nd graders learn how to read better for my internship, i find myself having a lot of time to do some soul-searching and some thinking. sometimes that's a bad thing, but for the most part, it's proven to serve me well. the one recurring thought i have is why did i waste so much time on people that were so friggin toxic to my existence? like seriously...since i've axed people from my friend circle, i have found that my life is a lot less dramatic than it used to be. i swear, some people cannot survive without startin' up a whole bunch of shit and throwin' my name in the middle of it. go figure. i'm just amazingly grateful that i got out when i did...otherwise, i would have been thrown under the bus a long time ago by this particular person...

i've also come to the conclusion that i really think the term "best friend" is rather highly overrated. i have a few really, really close friends...then there are some i'm close enough to...then there are even more people that i know and that i don't often hang around, but we still know/know of each other...but i can't really sit here and say that one person distinctively stands out in my mind as a best friend. i honestly think that maybe that's a good thing...maybe i don't need to have one person to depend on...eh...idk. not that i'm all that concerned about it...it was just something that popped up in my head...

well...off to go listen to some more of the roots/talib kweli/mos def/jill scott/erykah badu/lupe fiasco/whoever else is on this playlist i made on imeem...

until next time,

ell bee.